Risky Business: Art on the Edge

For the last few years in my marketing biz, I’ve been listening to people say “Great idea, but we can’t because _____.” The usual excuse was “the budget,” but after a while you stop falling for that. Especially when you see where said measly budget gets spent (or wasted). I think in fact the real reason is often a lack of faith, a deficit of daring. Too bad. No one ever makes breakthrough creative without risking something.   

In writing, especially poetry, no boundaries exist, except in the faint of heart or limited of imagination. If you want a grain silo full of chorus girls in your poem, you just plunk one down, as Richard Hugo taught us in The Triggering Town. If you want a talking walrus or a headless queen or a flying monkey or a jump-roping jackass, just make one up with the flash of a pen. If the poem or story wants it and you’re willing to earn it from the reader, anything goes. The point is no one ever made it memorable by playing it safe.   

Cassatt's "Summertime"

 

This is true in any art form. Think of Isadora Duncan’s dance moves or Dorothea Lange’s photographic portraits, Mary Cassatt’s pastels and paintings, or Virgina Woolf’s essays and novels. The world might not embrace the “new form” when it first arrives, but it’s the work that dances the edges that keeps the art alive.   

Poetry is exceptionally malleable, lean, and agile, and pliability is among its greatest attractions—and challenges. Poetry jukes and jives and doesn’t care if it litters your mind with a thousand slaughtered weak ideas. In fact, it purges our minds of feeble thoughts by bringing in bigger, stronger, fresher ones. New metaphors, vibrant imagery, juicy verbs. “True wit is nature to advantage dressed/ What oft was thought, yet ne’er so well expressed,” Pope said and I thank God for it every day.   

Poetry is the cure for all the petty things we fuss about daily. Poetry doesn’t care if those pants make your butt look big. Poetry wants you to focus on what matters: affairs of the heart, family, the struggles of peoples, the young, the aged, the blissful, the sacred, the natural, the neglected, the political, and the ethereal. The movements of nations and constellations, both wheeling through time and space at the mercy of forces set into motion long before they even existed.   

Poetry insists you look up and notice.   

In his poem Asphodel, That Greeny Flower, William Carlos Williams reminded us “It is difficult/ to get the news from poems/ yet men die miserably every day/ for lack/ of what is found there.”   

Save yourselves. Read a little poetry every day.   

Here are some sites to get you started: www.poets.org (poems, biographies, commentary), www.poemhunter.com (a sloppy site, you’ll have to dig a bit, but don’t give up), and you can sign up to get a poem delivered to you daily by email at The Writer’s Almanac, just check the box on this form:   http://mail.publicradio.org/content/506927/forms/apm_signup.htm.   

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In Memorium

Yesterday was the fourth anniversary of the passing of our dear golden retriever Emily. We took the kids with us when we decided it would be more merciful to send her off gently with medications. It’s important to teach children that death is part of life. There is no easy way to do this, but by circling the wagons, so to speak, we make the harsh realities survivable.

If I err as a parent, it’s on the disclosure side. Shared grief is a great opportunity to help kids grow in faith and strength. I not only think it’s ok to cry in front of kids, I think it’s harmful to not show them what it means to be fully human. When our kids see us run the gamut of emotions and still come out (relatively) balanced, it gives them confidence that everything is going to be okay.

I have a series of “calendar” poems. Today I’m posting an unpublished one. Even though it’s true I’ve lost most of my dear departed in February, I will say I don’t always feel this way about February any more. But that year, February deserved some push back.


February

When we walked out of the vet’s office,
the snow was blowing sideways,
blasts of mock confetti.
The wind had been howling for days,
roughing up our dog, parting her fur
in brutal slices as she crouched feebly in the snow
while I stood sentinel, unable to block the gusts.
The wind had let up just long enough for us to gently usher her
into that final appointment, a family bound in anguish and tenderness,
trying to cushion her from any last discomfort.

Now this heaving insult.

“Last one out shuts off the lights,” we used to say at camp,
but today the sky was bleak, a stunned white,
the whole world wild with grief.
Everything mourning but this profane wind,
harassing us all the way to the car,
where we slammed ourselves in,
the gusts rocking our metal shelter,
snowflakes still swirling madly before settling on our coats.
Sobbing, five-year-old Lily bleated her sorrow
as we pulled away: Em-i-ly! Em-i-ly!
And the heartless wind wailed on, slicking all the roads,
throwing up snow blinds at every curve.
Steering through a screen of tears,
we slid dangerously close to the ditch
on the last bend before home.

Now it won’t stop being February.
It grinds on and on like a glacier,
and I just want to kill it,
want to strangle ugly little February.
Stubby little month with the Napoleon complex,
killing everyone I ever loved,
just to get my attention.
Goddamn February,
how I long to beat you with the rock of March,
bash in your skull with Easter,
turn your black soul
into moss and daffodils,
something peaceful and relenting.

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L’Etoile de mon esprit

 

Today I will share with you a confounding aspect of my personality (just one!). I have a habit of starting a profound or riveting discourse…and then just completely forgetting that I am talking to someone.

My oldest daughter recently pointed this out to me…again. In typical Sandy fashion, I had started a sentence with a grandiose opener, a real cliff-hanger. Something akin to, I’ve got a story for you! This elephant rang the doorbell today while I was on the phone.

And then I just stopped talking. She thought I was just pausing for affect, but a few seconds after I should have started talking again, she looked over at me and this was what she saw: A gaping mouth, a far-away stare, a slightly tilted head, and quiet breathing. Mo-o-om! You’re doing it again 

It’s true, I do this all the time. Especially when I am overwhelmed or in a real creative fervor. (My daughter’s not the first to want to throttle me for this—just ask my little brother.)

The French term for having your mouth agape is bouche bée (boosh bay). If I were a performance artist, Bouche Bée would be my stage name. I just get into a conversational groove with someone, fully intending to stay there, and then whatever I am saying makes me think of something else, and then that makes me think of something else, and so on. It’s like going through a roundabout to come out on a different street than I entered. Pretty soon I am miles from my original thought and have long since stopped talking.

L’Arc de Triomphe in Paris is a massive marble monument encircled by la Place de l’Etoile (also known as Place Charles de Gaulle), where no less than 12 major avenues, including the famous Champs-Elysées, converge spectacularly like the spokes of wheel. The French call this an étoile (star), and many cities have them, but la Place de l’Etoile is the mother of them all. It’s absolutely nuts, a roundabout on anabolic steroids. Automobiles circle and cross lanes (virtual lanes–there are no lines) at terrifying speeds without ever stopping, signaling, or braking. It’s the ultimate game of chicken. You drive in on one spoke, cross six “lanes” of traffic, and exit heading in another direction.

My first day in Paris, I was jet-lagged, thrilled, and terrified at the same time. A couple new friends and I took off by foot to see the city, armed only with a street map to use once we were good and lost. Suddenly we came upon this spectacle of traffic. We saw people gathered under the famous arch and the urge to be there was overwhelming. Paris, baby! I looked at the streams of endless automobiles and thought, Shit, this is going to be tough. Thank God a friendly native (angel?) shoved us away from the curb and pointed us toward the pedestrian subway. Oh, so that’s how you do it!

In conversation, I’m not so in control. But when I’m writing, another angel visits me. This angel guides me right through létoile de mon esprit, the roundabout of my mind, unscathed. Sometimes, in fact, she helps me build those streets. Sometimes she’s a traffic cop, urging the images or sounds or ideas to speed up or slow down.

Sometimes writing is a country lane, the simplest thing you can imagine…and imagining simplicity is no easy feat in our world of merging lanes and reckless drivers. Sometimes writing is the exhilarating, even terrifying, convergence of contrasts, ideals, and harmonies. The one constant is someone has to build it and navigate it. When my angel swoops down, trowel or whistle in hand, it is a good day indeed.

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