A Fox Story

A few weeks ago we were thrilled to discover a family of red foxes living in our neighbors’ yards. At first they were denned across the road above us. We often see the mama, who had denned in the same spot last year and seems to be friendly with our golden retriever, but we didn’t see the kits until she moved them across the street to another neighbor’s yard (their summer home). One evening we were walking the dogs and saw three sweet little furballs staring at us from the side of the road. They looked more curious than scared, especially since they couldn’t help pouncing on each other and rassling between bouts of staring. We kept our distance, the dogs behaved, but we turned around and walked the other way so as not to freak out mama, who was yelping to distract us.

The next night we left the dogs home and counted five kits! They pounced and tumbled and seemed to enjoy an audience, though they were cautious. A couple nights later we went to see them and discovered they had stolen one of our dogs’ stuffed animals. Since then we’ve watched it migrate between the two dens, with surprisingly little wear for all the use it’s getting.

It’s hard to describe a fox yelp, sort of like a loud cat with laryngitis. It’s a wild sound and as consistent as a metronome. I assume that in the fall they yelp to attract mates, but once the kits arrive, it’s usually to distract predators from the den. Every time we pass the den with the dogs on our way uphill, we alert mama fox. When we come back down the hill, she’s waiting for us and makes a big show of sauntering/pattering across the road in front of us. Look at me, chase me, nothing in the den, nuh-uh, no babies here! she seems to say. She’s so obvious I feel compelled to reassure her as we pass that, even though the dogs are excited, we’re not interested in harming any of them, including her. She just stares, on high alert.

As I write this, it’s midmorning and mama fox has been crying and screaming since, my husband says, four in the morning. Every several  seconds she sounds off again. She’s been doing it for five and a half hours now. I walked up the hill earlier to see if any critter was haunting her den or if I could catch a glimpse of her, but no luck. I think she saw me, though. 

Her constant wailing has me worried. Has one of the kits gone missing? There is a mountain lion on our hill. The fact that she’s so darn persistent is what makes me think this is an unusually big deal. We’ll probably never learn what really happened. Last night she took at least a few of her kits on a hunting trip through our yard, so we kept the dogs in. I’d like to think she has just been mouthing off about the state of the world today, and Lord knows that could keep one busy for hours. But now, finally, she has gone quiet. I hope she found her baby.

This unfinished story that is likely to remain so reminds me of something I keep reading about lately. For some reason I keep stumbling on quotes by famous writers, bashing the story that ends neatly, with all the loose ends tied up with a big red bow. This type of story is the model of much of Western literature. We are so Disney-fied. I admit I get sucked into the big tidy ending preference. I don’t need a happy ending, but one that makes sense or at least settles my heart a bit. Because life is so seldom like that! So many of us have to deal with things that persist, that haunt us. Grief. Chronic illness. Endless war or unrest. Or just a lingering malaise. Since all these quotes keep jumping out at me, I wonder what’s next. What jagged edge could be out there. Waiting. Like a mountain lion in the dark.

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Hail the Dutiful and Determined!

Über-awesomeness alert: If you’re in a hurry, skip to the last paragraph and get a free cheap thrill.

Recently, I finished a poetry manuscript I’ve been working on for years, and sent it to a publisher during their open submission period. I’m throwing my hat in the ring with who knows how many other writers, but it’s a fantastic feeling just to get a book ready for publication. Something is there that wasn’t!

Still, no significant journey is totally smooth and, after being sidetracked for years (and for good reasons like having kids), my home stretch had some roadblocks. “How badly do you want this?” the voice in my head kept asking.

Pretty damn badly, it turns out. In February, I took a sabbatical to finish this book. Then I broke my tailbone, which made it impossible to sit for the hours that a meticulous revision requires. The upside is my house was super tidy for few weeks, because cleaning house was actually more comfortable than sitting. The downside was I got depressed. So I learned to type sideways while lying on the couch. Onward!

Then we adopted Scout, a husky-shepherd mix. Beautiful, sweet dog but guess who’s job it is to train her on house rules and hey, you don’t need to bite our other dog’s ear every five minutes to prove that you’re alpha. WE GET IT ALREADY! Plus, I like to walk the dogs for a few miles every day, but no matter how you leash Scout, with front harness or muzzle lead, she is a husky and that makes you a SLED. So now I have tendonitis in both elbows. Okay, we add ice and ibuprofen to the writing regimen.

Then there was the unexpected part of revision. It makes sense now that revisiting events that inspired so many poems would stir me, but it took me a while to figure out why I was suddenly so weepy. (I already spend enough time wondering who thinks I’m the crazy lady of the neighborhood, so this is just what I needed, right?)

This is where the devotion to craft comes in. If there’s going to be anything for the reader to discover, you have to push all the emotion deep into the poem. That means you have to get intimate with it all over again. So there I was, lying sideways with my laptop, ice packs all around, tears at the ready, and a deadline looming. To make it through the final sprint, I even quit walking the dogs those last couple weeks. So I’m not only sore but out of shape and hey, here comes summer vacation and kids who want me to drive them places!

In the end, I turned in the manuscript way before the deadline, but man, it felt like a marathon. Today I proudly cheered on my brother-in-law Tom as he crossed the finish line of a running marathon, and I have the utmost respect for him. Victory to those who train hard and keep their focus!

You can get a sneak preview of three poems from my manuscript by visiting the online magazine Pure Francis at www.purefrancis.org for the June 5, 2011 issue. (It’ll be up there a week, then look for the link “3 Poems.”) I love Pure Francis—it’s fun and fresh and flippin’ original. Plus, they have a gift shop—with beer glasses! Three of my prose poems will be debuting there tonight. They showed up during a really lucky streak (yes, I have those too!), so please enjoy them. Then pass me the Advil.

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Celebrating Child Poets

Well, the results are in and I’m proud to publish these top-shelf grade-school poets! Congratulations to Veronica, Bridger, Brook, Emma, Davis,  Sawyer, and Eva! As you can read below, the kids started with a “fill-in-the-blank” writing prompt for a poem originally titled “About Me.” These poets didn’t hesitate to use their imagination and creativity to complete it. Nice job, kids!

About Me

My name is Veronica, but most people call me Roni. I have dirty blond hair that loves to play tangle-twigs-in-me. My eyes are hazel except when I see gummy bears and they turn light green with swirling blue hearts. I like to eat dumplings with sweet and sour sauce and carrots. My dad says the best thing about me is my crazy hair. Most of the time I am daydreaming, and on Saturdays my favorite thing to do is dance in my underwear.
How about you?

 —Veronica H.

About Me

My name is Bloop L. Bleep. But most people call me Fish Food. I have pink hair that is pink. My eyes are red except when I run. Then they turn pink. I like to eat mold with pepper and salt. My family says the best thing about me is my tentacles. Most of the time I am purple. And on Saturday my favorite thing to do is sleep.
How About You? 

—Bridger H.

 
Moi

My name is Billy Bob Billy Bob Billy Bob Joe, but most people call me Bob. I have neon pink hair that is attracted to trees. My eyes are red except when I’m mad, then they turn blue. I like to eat brown food with grease and salt. My best friend says the best thing about me is I am Awesome! Most the time I am eating bacon and on Saturdays my favorite thing to do is dance the Macarena. How about you?

 —Brooke H.

 

 “I am”

My name is Emma
but most people call me M&M.
I have scientific hair
that is poofy.
My eyes sparkle except when I’m mad
then they’re red and they have fire.
I like to eat dinosaurs with
hot sauce and butter.
My father says the best thing about me
is I’m pretty.
Most the time I make aliens
and on Saturdays I make more aliens.
How about you? 

                             —Emma R.

 About Me

My name is Davis,
But most people call me, Hey, that kid over there! Yeah, you!
I have blue hair that swims.
My eyes are red, except when I eat bananas, and they disappear.
I like to eat humans with bugs and mud.
My fish says the best thing about me is that
I take out the trash.
On Saturdays my favorite thing to do is fly.
How about you?

                             — Davis V.

About Me

My name is Mr. Ducklow
but most people call me Ducky.
I have orange hair.
My eyes are hot pink.
Except when I get mad.
And they blow up.
I like to eat Pringles with staples and tape.
My friends say that the best thing about me is my beard.
Most of the time I am grading papers.
And on Saturdays my favorite thing to do
is listen to my class talk.
How about you?

                             —Sawyer K.

About Me

My name is Eva
but most people call me beautiful.
I have straight blond hair
that glows when I sing under the shower.
My eyes are brown
except when I cry, then they are wet.
And they are pink when I’m in love with someone.
I like to eat pasta
with mud and worms.
My father says the best thing about me
    is that I have big ears.
Most of the time, I’m playing with my hair.
And on Saturdays my favorite thing to do
is wake up my sister in the morning.
How about you?

                          —Eva N.

Everyone who participated in the session did a great job. Thanks for stopping by and have a great summer! See you next school year!

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