We May Never Pass This Way Again

clouds like distant mountainsWhen I think of summer, I hear Seals & Croft, the super mellow ‘70s duo that turned summer memories into the most benevolent silk that wraps around you anytime you hear the first few notes of any of their songs. The soft tweedle of “Hummingbird don’t fly away, fly away,” spills into “Diamond Girl,” which slides into “Closer to You.” But the quintessential (that’s five times essential) summer song in my life has been “Summer Breeze.”

Summer breeze
Makes me feel fine
Blowin’ through the jasmine in my mind….

(Now you, too, can be wrapped up in the best tune bondage ever. You’re welcome.)

The song captures so much of what’s great about summer…early evening, floral scents wafting on the warm breeze as the day winds down, the feeling of homecoming. For me the song was the soundtrack for glorious Colorado sunsets with light streaming through the clouds over the mountains, running around outside after dinner, getting in one last game of kickball or Red Rover or just zipping up and down the streets on our bikes. It was my parents hanging out on the neighbors’ front porch in lawn chairs while we played tag by the honeysuckle bushes. It was the first stars coming out and every night the wail of the Burlington Northern-Santa Fe rail line that ran straight through the heart of Littleton, Colorado. We lived in the unincorporated part of Jefferson County, surrounded with fields and greenbelts, and when that train whistle blew at midnight, I could finally fall asleep, tucked in with the windows open. When I heard that wail, I knew: All was right in the world.

When Seals & Croft came out with the classic “We May Never Pass This Way (Again),” it became the anthem for my last two years of high school. I was in love with a German boy my junior year, and he left for home at the end of that summer. That song became the engine that drove me through a couple years of studying abroad and, honestly, probably shaped my carpe diem outlook.

Because it’s true. Every single day, it’s true: We may never pass this way again. So take lots of pictures of your summer. You won’t regret it. Here are some of mine.

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Happy Summer!

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And the Winner Is…

A couple weeks ago I took my daughter to the Denver Museum of Nature & Science to see, among other things, the Mythical Creatures exhibit, where I snapped this photo:

Photo credit: Sandra S. McRae

Photo credit: Sandra S. McRae

Then I posted it on Facebook and held a caption contest. The prize for best caption was a poem. My friend Lori Greenlee McDowell won with her quip: “No, I did not sleep well last night. Why do you ask?” The judging, of course, was completely subjective and I had absolutely no ethical oversight in picking the winner. You are all winners in my book! Lori, here is your poem:

Winston Churchill’s American Mother Said:

Treat your friends
as you do your best pictures
and always place them
in their best light.

So when you see her
       eyes bugged out and blazing
       lips pulled back to flash fierce teeth
       collar flared to make herself bigger

Remember that beneath that bluster
       a sweaty, overworked
       stressed, small human
       is likely dealing as best she can
       with a tremendous fear
       of Bali lions.

 

Compassion! Thanks for playing, everyone!

 

 

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Repeat After Me (and your first-grade self): “Yes!”

Not too long ago I realized how much energy I (we, you) put into avoiding the painful or awkward or difficult in life. It’s been a long haul from the monkey bars and first grade, when we just said Yes! to anything. Have you noticed? If you can remember back to the time when throwing yourself through time and space or learning a new skill was just what you did, you may wonder, as I do, what the hell happened.

My answer today is: Who cares? Who cares what led us to be cautious? That’s not the point. The point is: being careful has not always served us well. It may have helped you survive to read this sentence, but chances are it also helped you miss out on a lot of adventures.

In my 20s I was crazy adventurous, traveling across Europe, exploring the USSR, eating anything that didn’t bite back, sampling local libations, ride-sharing with strangers, and getting into other hijinx I’m not ready to commit to print just yet.

Then I got married, had kids, started thinking of mortality–which, given my early history, was understandable. Maybe I even got a little neurotic at times, but I am committed to sticking around for my kids and securing their longevity. So Safety Sandy became my nickname. Sexy, I know.

But still: You and I both know that no matter how much energy we put into holding pain and anguish at bay (see paragraph 1), it’s gonna show up anyway. So I’m slowly learning to just live my damn life anyway. On good days, anyway, that’s how I try to operate. Not saying I don’t wake up in the middle of the night and have panic attacks about what COULD have happened while I was speeding down I-70 today, but I try. And lately it has become easier.

Also, I have learned to not give a f*(# about b.s. stuff that I used to actually care about.  So much crap I wasted energy on! No more. That helps big time.

So far, the universe has rewarded me for leaping.

Leap one: Decided to limit my perfectionism to writing only. Much relief, much better use of that instinct. Check.

Leap two: Attended the 2015 AWP conference (big national writer-palooza) in Minneapolis in April. I have a weird affection for the town and knew the conference would be good soul food. I was inspired, came home, started submitting like crazy, and my logjam of inertia is slowly busting up. Two poems published, a manuscript in review, and more out there waiting. Check.

Leap 2: I reconnected with an old grad school buddy, who suggested we submit a proposal for a panel at next year’s AWP. Check.

Leap 3: I applied for the Denver Writing Project, a three-week intensive writing/teaching program, and got accepted. Check.

It’s the best. Thing. Ever.

Denver Writing Project

I’m learning from some of the best, most experienced, gracious, inspirational, and intelligent people in my field. I can’t believe I’m so lucky. And it’s only Day Two!

So my message to you is to re-learn how to say YES. Be bold. Try something new or something you’ve always wanted to do. Take a risk, for heaven’s sake, and get yourself out there. Good things are waiting for you!

 

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